High on MSD

It did not come as a shock , knowing Him I was surely expecting this after Sydney. I was kind of prepared for it. The Man for whom Gary once said he will go to war with Him on his side would not be seen in cricket whites again. For many it will be a great news, and why shouldn’t it be . After all they knew much more than him about the field placements. His ideas were plain stupid they thought. Who keeps a leg slip for a leg-spinner, why is that third man required or why not go for the kill, these people knew all. And these were the same people who said same thing about Ganguly when he was about to be thrown out of the team and then started singing praises about him saying how good a captain Ganguly was and how bad He is.  The easiest thing about being a critic is their ability to find problems at all the things which are in focus . And when it is out of focus the same thing is the perfect picture.

Let them be happy, let them question Him why abandon the ship in the middle and not wait for one more test. Let them tell that ache din for Indian cricket in test is about to come with Virat at the Helm. He would not care. Actually He has never cared, atleast that’s what it  has seemed like all these days. Well of course, For Him and all of his white beard(which they think is because of the bright sunny days spent on the field letting the game drift , and surrendering abjectly when travelling overseas)  the pressure is always on the other person and not on Him.

Few years back I wrote a blog about what makes me happy after India’s win in T20 semi finals in 2007. It was India’s victories in the fields of cricket, it still makes me happy. But if there is something that brings tears in my eyes then it is that six which  Gavaskar would like to see just before he dies. I have seen it many times, but each time I see it I relive those moments. Each time I see it I choke. 2011 WC was special, and like Sachin says that the 34000 runs do not matter, 100 centuries do not matter but it’s the World Cup that he had dreamt all his life,  it was dream come true for a stupid cricket lover like me and for the every other person who wakes up at 5 in the cold winter mornings when India goes to Australia. So obviously the Man who hit that six will always be extra special. I’m not his die-hard Fan, I have liked Him as much as I have liked Sachin , the man who gave us Hope or Sehwag  the man who taught us Fearlessness or Rahul who taught us Patience or Ganguly who taught us how to lead men. He didn’t teach us anything, he just practiced it. As long as He was there on the crease there was hope, He wasn’t afraid of anything, stayed patient ,didn’t give  up till the last ball was bowled ,how to lead from front and be an example for others. Someone said He is like the engineering student who enjoys all through the semester, studies on the last day before the exam and still tops it.

I started watching cricket when Sachin had just come into international cricket. I faintly remember the 92 world cup when I innocently asked an elder relative that if India will win the cup if they defeated Newzealand, as they were winning all the league matches. Like every other spectator at the Eden Gardens, I was angry after the 96 WC Semi Final, and thought will never watch cricket again. 99 was nothing better. 2003 gave us hope, excited us, but only to be left high and dry. The less we talk about 2007 , the better it is.  Harsha once said 2007 was the WC which never happened for Indians (and Pakistanis).As I try to recollect that six from 2011 I have started to choke again.  Somehow after that match I got a feeling that he always knows what to do and when to do, to win the match. It seemed like He was always in control. It always seemed that He always wins the matches He wants to .

Well ofcourse test cricket was a different game altogether. He did not look to have the same control when travelling overseas and everybody knows that, the stats suggests the same. The reason can be many and there is no point discussing it. The bottom line is He is the one to blame for all the debacles. He once said in a press conference , if there is a win , it is the team’s win and if there’s a loss it is the Captain’s fault. I absolutely agree with this. But then you are as good as your team. And when you say from behind the wicket as Sir bowls a bad ball “Bolega to udhar Pujara ko usi ke liye rakha hai, taali bajane ke liye nahi hai” or “tu daal hi galat raha hai” when Ashwin keeps bowling wrong line clearly showed the bowlers not bowling what He wants them to bowl. As I said reasons can be many, but to move on is life. May be Virat would prove to be a better captain overseas, may be Saha a better keeper batsman in test, may be we will get another better finisher may be we will win another WC but for today and for next few years He would be the BEST we saw.

Few years from now when my son starts watching cricket and hopefully love it as much as I do I will tell him stories about Him. I’ll tell him how Joginder Sharma was given the last over , how he hit a mammoth 183, how he hit Shoaib Akthar all around the park  to score 148 in Faisalabad, how he got run out on 99 with smallest margin possible and how he hit his first double century batting with the tail. Every day It will be a new story with Him in the main lead and I’ll never have to cook up stories. 

In couple of months from now when India starts defending the cup , he will have nothing left to prove, but I know he will still take it to the last ball and will win it for India. And if He hits that extra special  6 again…. I’ll be High on MSD forever. 

Breaking The Ice

Neha : Do you think anything has changed in your life after marriage

Vivek : Hmmm. Why this question suddenly?

Neha : Just like that. Some of my friends were asking me this question and I can think of a big list, just wanted to know what you think about this.

Vivek : I'll have to think about it.

Neha : Hey you have not posted anything on your blog for a long time, why don't you write a post on this topic.

Vivek : Wonderful.You know what I've been thinking of posting something for a long long time but somehow can't start only.

Neha : And why is that?

Vivek : There is this small poem from Gulzar which will aptly describe why I'm not able to write anything.

Nazm Uljhi Hui Hai Seene Mein
Misre Atke Hai Hothon Par.
Lafs Kagaj Par Baiththe Hi Nahi..
Udte Firte Hai Titliyon Ki Tarah.

Kab Se Baithaa Hun Main Jaanam
Saade kaagaz Pe Likh Ke Naam Tera
Bas Tera Naam Hi Mukammal Hai
Is Se Behtar Bhi Nazm Kyaa Hogi

( Translates to
A poem is tangled in my chest.
Stanzas are trapped at my lips,
Fluttering like butterflies
words refuse to settle on paper.
I have labored for hours my darling
After I wrote your name
on a blank sheet of paper.
Your name itself is so beautiful.
What poem can excel that? .. (Thank you Google and Rumi.. whoever you are for the wonderful translation. Sorry I lifted it without your permission :-) !!!)


Neha : Aapki Zarra-Nawazi ka behad-behad shukriya.

Vivek : Kya baat hai.. You also getting in poetic mood. :-)

Neha : Bus Janaab Ki Meherbaaniyan Hai.

Vivek : Acha let's come back to the main topic, you wanted to know what has changed for me after marriage.

Neha : Yup

Vivek : You want to know good things or bad things.

Neha : Acha.. bad things bhi hai kya ;-)

Vivek : Why not? A coin always has two sides.

Neha : Hmm.. Tell me both.

Vivek : Done... Next post will be on this topic. Keep watching this space.



P.S. - Note that Jhum has been replaced by Neha in this and all the future posts , as all the imaginations in the name of Jhum have become a reality in form of Neha. :-)

So Another year has passed by. Generally speaking, the year wasn't that great for the world. Infact it was one of the worst years that I've seen in my life. A year marred by bomb-blast, terrorist attacks, financial meltdowns, rising prices, etc etc. I am actually thinking if anything good happened this year, yes there were lot of success in cricket and other sports for India, India's Chandrayan mission was successful, but apart from that how hard I think I am not able to find any thing good that happened this year.

But personally speaking the year was good for me, should I say a landmark year for me.And if I compare it with 2007 then I won't be wrong if I say this year was one of the best and 2007 was one of the worst.

January was just great, after a lot of unsuccessful attempts at job interviews I did manage to clear one, and that too a big one. Cisco. And this co-incided exactly with the with a new member in the family. Cousin sister was blessed with a baby girl, no wonder she is named Angel :-) . This was followed by another offer from NetApp. A double delight in the space of 5 days. I had a chance to make it triple delight but decided not to.

February was tough, and busy. Lot of work was left to be finished before I left Alcatel-Lucent. The month was difficult also, because the managers there were trying to convince me not to leave the company. It was difficult because I hate to say no and that's what I had to do.Feb 29th was the last day at Lucent and it was difficult. Wrote a big thank-you mail to my team-mates. Will surely miss them all.

March started with a bang. India's win in the CB series was exciting and so was first day at NetApp. Surely a great place to work and to add to it some real good people around. Made some really good friends in a very short period of time. Did some mistakes that I shouldn't have done. And then had a big accident. Luckily nothing happened to me but my sparky was badly damaged. She had to be towed away to the garage. And it took more than 3 months to get it back in shape.

April, May June was all fun. Lived my life to the fullest. Never had so much fun in life as I had in those three months. I was really happy with myself.

July was a turning point in my life. Parents decided that I had enough of fun and that was it. My so called independent and exciting days were about to get over. But before that I had to things that I really hated to do. I'm sorry A..... . It just did not happen. Thanks for being a lovely friend, may God give you all the happiness and everything else that you wish for.

Met Tumul after a long time. And he is the reason why I'm engaged now , never thought this will happen so soon!!!

August was spent in realising that I was officially committed. And my birthday this year was really great, the best so far. All thanks to Neha.:-) She made me feel really special. Made me realise that all the running-behind-the-girl days were over and its time to be the special one for someone special. Love You Neha :-)

September and October, I just did two things. Work and talk over the phone. Work was hectic but was enjoying every bit of it and in the meanwhile got some award also at the work place which was really very satisfying and for the first time in my 3 years at work, I felt I could make a difference.

November first half was spent in planning for the trip to kolkata to celebrate Neha's birthday and second half in catching up with the work. I realised that I have raised the bar at the workplace quite high and was always catching my tail but the work was never finishing.

December was again the same thing but the thought of a long vacation ahead made it even more exciting. Last few days of the year was spent chillaxing at home. Nothing is better in this world than sleeping in mom's lap. A good end to a good year.

And unlike last two years I did manage to take bath on the first day of the year. :-)

God Tussi Great Ho!!

God is so Unkind and Unfair. No He really is. Not that I realised it today but its just that the belief strengthened today.
This post is dedicated to the one and only Shri Lalu Prasad Yadav. Not because I'll be entering Bihar in few hours from now but because of his great service to Indian Railways and the ideas he has implented to increase the revenues of railway and making it a one of the biggest profit making public sector organisation

Before I start this post I would also want to thank Ramdev Baba without him and without Aastha Channel the possibility of writing this post was almost Zilch!
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Right now I'm in a train travelling from Howrah to Patna and to my surprise the coach is brand new.So I happily check my ticket, 26 is my berth no... Immediately the mathematical part of my brain starts calculating, ah Shit! Its a middle berth..
F****** bad luck. I enter the train, what do I see there are 9 berths in each coupe instead of normal 8. The side one also has a middle berth now. And then the very generous Murphy was very kind to me. I had the same F****** side middle berth.
The reason why I thank Ramdev Baba was because if not for him and his yoga positions I would have never been able to write this post from train.The height of this F***** side middle berth is just about enough to keep the lapton on my stomach and open it.The bed to ceiling distance for this berth would be hardly 2ft, just imagine how cramped up this place is. All thanks to Lalu Bhaiya. I dont know where does he get all this F***** brilliantly stupid ideas from.

Anyways let's come to the main story, because as they say when life throws lemons at you, squeeze them , make lemonades and have fun. So even if its 2ft of head space I wanted to and so I will write a post now.

When I was young ( people around me managed to convince me that I've become old, old enough to get married and so I'm engaged now and hence no longer young ) . Ah! lost track. Let me start again. When I was young and a little desperate the first thing I used to do before boarding a train was to check the passenger's list of my coach and at the same time pray to God, God! My Lord! This time, for once .. just for once please put at least one Girl of my age in my coupe.
But as I said God is so unfair and unkind, in last 7 years I swear to God never did he answer my prayers.
So when I lost my young-ness (does that word even exist!) and desperateness that is after I got engaged I prayed to God again. Oh God! My lord,please put some good guys in my coupe, who play cards and a fun company so that I do not get bored.

As I said He is so unkind and unfair, He for some reason, (I'm sure to tease me ) put a good looking girl in the berth above mine. I looked up ( in the sky) and asked why!!! for what F****** reason you making fun of me Why now?
Anyways, I decided I will not talk to that girl first. I don't need to. If she talks then it is fine but I will not make the first move. I dont need to (I know what you are thinking. yes I'm a stupid narrow minded A****** ). 16 hrs passed and I didn't speak a word to her. Though out of those 16 hrs , she was sitting facing me for 8 hrs. Anyways after doing all the timepass I decided to strike a conversation with her. We started talking and we talked for about 15 mins or so, Came to know she is an engineer working in a bangalore based MNC and 2 years junior to me. After 15 mins for some reason I told her that I've to meet my fiance in Kolkata. And that was the last sentence in our conversation. Trust me we stopped talking then and there only. I felt like some kind of untouchable. No its not that I wanted to talk to her, but I felt I was not treated as a normal human being. Anyways I thought these are all Pyar ke side effects and it happens with everyone.
But that was not enough. After some 4-5 hrs she talked to me again. And guess what she said.
"Bhaiya yeh charger laga denge" . I said yeah sure and told myself, you know what , it still hurts when some pretty girl calls you bhaiya.

By the way my miseries didnt stop here. I boarded the train from howrah to Patna. And guess , what is the situation now.
Two very beautiful girls in my coupe and two each in coupe adjoining to my coupe.

God Tussi great Ho!!

I'm a Lawyer!!

Just a mere thought of the person who tried to break-in into my car on that lonely stretch of Mysore Road and later who threw the big stone on my car that led to a nasty accident still scares me.Its more than 6 months now but the thought of that day still sends chill through my spine.
Makes me think did I act cowardly that day. But when I think again, I realise that I was not coward, it is just that i did not act smart and did not use my brains. Anyways you can't change the past.
I always used to have this reccurent dream of being stuck up in something like that and I always used to fight with the person. I always used to think that if I'm ever stuck in some kind of robbery or kidnap I will always resist but then what we think and what we do is not always same. That day was a lesson well learnt.

Just after I hit the milestone and was bleeding profusely there were few people gathered around to see what has happened. A young man, may be in his early 30's stopped there to help me. He immediately called an ambulance and checked if I was fine. Then he noticed that my car was badly hit and it would need a major repair. He said you need to file a FIR
so that you can claim for an insurance as it was very evident that the car was new.He also explained the whole procedure of what I have to do and what do I have to tell the police.
Then he said you have my number, I am a lawyer i will help you out in claiming the insuance. Before he said that, I thought what a self less person he was. He had stopped to help me and did everything he could do at that time. But when he said that one line I was confused, whether this help was coming because he saw a prospective client in me. It might be a silly thought but then it made me think do we ever do anything without any motive ???

Rock-On!!!

Vivek : What's the best thing you can do if I give you 200 bucks...

Jhum : Hmmm.. Let me think.. Probably I will go and have chocolate ice cream at the best ice cream parlour in town.

Vivek : I'll give you a better option, go and watch "Rock On".

Jhum : Hmmm.. Abhi to movie release bhi nahi hui, how can you say that?

Vivek : Arey there was a pre-release show today, I booked the tickets and went. Fundoo stuff... I just can't get over it.

Jhum : Are aisa kya tha movie mein? DCH types

Vivek : Yeah.. Kind of DCH revisited, but I would rate it better than DCH.

Jhum : Kya bol rahe ho...Aisa kya tha movie mein

Vivek : You got to see it to feel it. Its about relationships, its about emotions, its about your dreams and if you think there is still something missing then there is Farhaan Akhtar. What a talented guy he is.. There are very few guys who I really admire and Farhaan Akhtar is definitely one of them.
The movie touches you, it makes you miss people who are very close to you. It makes you happy,it makes you jump in joy it makes your day!!!

Jhum : Oh my God!! So much tarif, then toh I definitely got to see this.

Vivek : Hey, don't go with any expectations, watch it without any thoughts, just let yourself immerse in the MAGIK created by the movie.

Jhum : I'm sure the movie must be really good, otherwise tum to bhool hi gaye the mujhe.

Vivek : I know :-) You know when we came out of the theatre, everyone of us was humming the songs of the movie and when we got into the car it was Rock On all the way. Music playing at full volume and everyone of us singing gala phar ke :-)
The true happiness wala feeling, that is when you feel really happy Dil Se, aisi feeling aa rahi thi.

Jhum : That's so sweet!!

Vivek : Anyways... Whatever the critics say, don't read it, just go and watch the movie... you very hardly get to see beautiful pictures and am sure you don't want to miss this one..

Jhum : Will do that.. chal its very late now, I'll talk to you later..

Vivek : Sure.. chal good nite and sweet dreams....


P.S : Mota, Bondwa, Chomsu..miss you yar... we definitely need a re-union..Rock On guys ;-).

What do you do when your life goes in a Auto-Pilot mode? As in when you don’t take any decisions, you just let things happen on their own as if you don’t care.
What do you do when you have to accept things when you don’t want to. What do you do when you have to say Yes when you actually wanted to say NO or vice-versa.

Take a break?? Yes and that’s what I’m doing. A trip to home, with more than 100hrs to spend on train and that too Alone… It can’t get better than this!!!

Momma I’m coming home :-)

Itna Lamba Kash Lo yaaron..

Itna Lamba Kash Lo Yaaron,
Dum Nikal Jaaye...
Yeh Zindagi Sulgao yaaron,
Gam Nikal Jaaye...


Jhum : You looked so tensed yesterday... Is everything alright?

Vivek : Badi fikar hai meri... :-)

Jhum : Oh ho.. majak mat karo.. Tell na.. what happened

Vivek : Nothing re.. Just had a bad start to the morning.

Jhum : Kya hua, I didn't call you in the morning isliye kya :-D

Vivek : No... I don't expect your calls these days..

Jhum : Then?

Vivek : Did you read yesterday's paper, about a scientist family committing suicide, the father died and others survived.

Jhum : Oh ya.. I did.. so sad na.. wat about them.

Vivek : I knew the family

Jhum : How?

Vivek : The girl who survived, Shruti, I taught her last year for few days. Shit man.. the family looked so happy today. I
can's still believe that they were in so much trouble.

Jhum : Oh that's so bad...

Vivek : Ya..the girl was so intelligent. She had a bright future ahead, but looks like everything will be ruined now

Jhum : Why do people have to take such drastic steps.

Vivek : Even I was wondering the same whole day. It seems the whole family was in a big debt and that's why they took the drastic step. But now what, the father has died, though the mother was also working but now its gonna be even more tough for them. Sometimes a few decisions can change the whole life.

Jhum : Hmmm

Vivek : I'm feeling so bad for the kids. Anyways.. I just wonder sometimes when do people give up, or what makes them give up. There are moments of weakness, when you feel really low, when you feel like doing things that you normally shouldn't do.

Jhum : Ya,,,and research says if somehow you overcome those moments then everything will be fine.

Vivek : Some say the people who commit suicide are very strong. it really requires some effort to do such co-wardly act.

Jhum : Hmmm...I reas this news about a boy putting a webcam on and committing suicide showing it live to his girl-friend who recently had ditched him.

Vivek : Girls are always like that..They always ditch ... On a serious note, I just hate people who commit suicide because of failed realtionship. But in general there are some situtations where suicides is justified.

Jhum : Hey let's not talk about this self-happy thing. It makes me feel sick.

Vivek : Ya me too... I was sulking whole day yesterday. I just hope things change for the family and they start their new lives with new hope. Though its bookish but then every day is a new day.

Jhum : Hope so...

Vivek : Chal I have to go now.. will talk to you later.

Jhum : Arey... what change. You are saying bye first ?

Vivek : He He He... Just that I don't like talking much these days... It makes me feel tired :-)

Jhum : What stupid reason

Vivek : Ok how about this.. I find girls boring now :-)

Jhum : What!!! Bye.. I don't wanna talk to u ..

Vivek : Hey I didn't mean that

Jhum : Bye!!!!!

Vivek : Hey waiiiiiiiiiit!!!

Kaat diya...Now i have to find new ways to say sorry.. Girls are so boring I say!!!!


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P.S.- RIP MR Vijay Kumar Choyal

Good.. Bad... Ugly

The GOOD

Sachin to play against Chennai SuperKings

Balaji becomes the first bowler to take Hat-trick in IPL.

Shoaib Akhtar demolishes DelhiDareDevils.

Cheer-Leaders will not wear revealing clothes.


The BAD


MNS party workers want Bombay Stock Exchange to be renamed as Mumbai Stock Exchange, give a 7 day notice to the BSE.

Inflation on a rise, Comman man suffers.

IIMs increase Annual Fee

Vatsy posts another pointless blog!!!!

And...
The UGLY

Nargis torments Burma. 25,000 including 10,000 children feared dead. A generation lost!!!

Earthquake rattles China .... 15,000 dead, millions left homeless

Firing at Indo-Pak border,Indian army kills Infiltrators. Cease-fire at risk

Terror Strikes in Rajasthan,Serial Bomb blast in Jaipur...20 dead hundreds Injured!!!

Taare Zameen Par :-)

Jhum : You remember once I sent you a forward about stars

Vivek : You have sent me so many forwards, which one you talking about?

Jhum : I don't remember exactly but it was something like reaching for a star, u know u can't reach it but u keep trying coz.. may be 1 day that star just might fall for you...

Vivek : Ya I kind of remember...not exactly though..

Jhum : We had a long discussion on this topic.. how can u forget.. stupid!!!

Vivek : Oops!! I've become old u see ;-)

Jhum : You bet

Vivek : So what about that forward

Jhum : Nothing about it .. just that you were putting all that crap about getting stars or rather excuses for not getting the stars in your g-talk status msgs...

Vivek : Oh ok.. but they were just for timepass... Was listening to the respective songs, liked the lines and hence it was there..

Jhum : I know.. Actually you said one very interesting thing in that day's discussion when I sent you that forward

Vivek : I really don't remember.. I keep giving fundae and keep forgetting them :)

Jhum : Chaman ho tum!!

Vivek : Thanks for the compliment.. Anyways wat did I say that day...

Jhum: You said you will not wait for the star to fall for you, you'll rather make plans to reach for it and you were sure that you will each there

Vivek : Did I say that? :-)

Jhum : So.. that was all bull-shit is it?

Vivek : He He He... I dunno..

Jhum : Then

Vivek : Then wat??

Jhum : Did your plans succeed... did you reach your star?

Vivek : Scientifically speaking it is impossible to reach to a star J

Jhum : So that means you waiting for it to fall for you J

Vivek : Achanak se yeh sab questions kaha se aa gaye ???

Jhum : Batao Na!!!

Vivek : I don’t care for the stars anymore…!!!

Jhum : You don’t care ya you have given up on your dreams

Vivek : Let’s not talk about all that

Jhum : Why??

Vivek : Coz I don’t want to discuss about realizing dreams and all that bakwaas

Jhum : bakwaas!!! I think you were the one who at one time was so desperate about fulfilling all your dreams

Vivek : I don’t have any dream to be fulfilled now

Jhum : What!! Matlab tumhare zindagi mein koi lakshya nahi hai!!!

Vivek : Nahi… mere zindagi mein bus preity zinta hai … J Stop being filmy… that’s completely my territory J

Jhum : Bina lakshya ke zindagi bekaar hai Vivek

Vivek : Lakshya ke saath bhi zindagi bekaar hai.. When something you really want to achieve and for some reason you were not able to achieve then it hurts a lot.

Jhum : So you don’t want to fight because you are scared of losing?

Vivek : I didn’t say that…

Jhum : But u meant that…

Vivek : Nopes.. Pata nahi yar… even I’m confused… But What I feel, it is the journey that matters and not the destination.. I enjoy the efforts I put in something to achieve it more than when I actually achieve that thing(though I rarerly achieve those things J ). When you achieve something it loses its value.. Gold is precious because its availability is less. The day it is as abundant as sand it will lose its value…

Jhum : Fir se funde chalu J So wat’s the funda for today

Vivek : He he he.. how can I miss that… Funda for today is simple and copied ;-)

KARMANYE WADHIKARASYE MA PHALESHU KADACHAN

Do things as you want to do it and do it with full passion. Result is immaterial if you are satisfied with your efforts. Its just that even if you fail at the end of the day you should not feel that you did not give your 100%...And if you have given your best then it doesn’t matter if you reach the stars or not… the thing that matters is that atleast you tried and not like people who just keep dreaming about reaching stars

Jhum : Bus bus.. bahut ho gaya.. bas ek chance milna chahiye aur funde chalu J

Vivek : Aur kya..

Jhum : So wat’s your star…

Vivek : You.. you’re my star!!! J

Jhum : Hum na sudhre the… hum na sudhrenge!!!!

Vivek : J Why do u ask such questions when you yourself know the answer

Jhum : I’m going to sleep now.. Goodnight!!

Vivek : Hum na sudhre the… hum na sudhrenge!!!!

Diffrentiating Life!!!

d/dx {LIFE}

When the derivative of a function at a point becomes zero, there exists a local maxima or a minima....We were taught this in higher secondary and the explaination given was that at every local maxima or minima the slope changes its sign, and that's why the slope becomes zero at that point and hence the derivative is zero।

I know it sounds stupid but in my school days I was really amazed by this maxima and minima funda। I used to think whoever has discovered this must be a genius. As I grew up, and become more mature (They say I still have a long way to go ;-)) I realised that there is nothing great about this discovery. We see this funda every day in our life. We have our highs and then thing start to fall apart. We have our lows and then things start to get better.Though not in a perfect sinusoidal way but life does go up and down every now and then.

Talking about sinusoidal stuff, I remember calculating Root Mean Square for different function to get some kind of average। We never used to deal with the peak value. It was always about averages, and mostly root mean square. Root mean square made sure that you get positive values at the end, because we always were concerned about the magnitude and never about the sign. So how is our life different from all those RMS calculations in current electricity. The problem with us is that we are always considered about the Peaks!!! We always talk about the happiest day and the saddest day of our lives.We take out only positives from the happiest day and only negatives from the saddest day. We don't realise that life is all about averages, it all evens out they say!!! .

We don't realise that the peaks are less, the most common is an ordinary day, when nothing great happens, when there is nothing special to talk about ( A friend of mine for last one year has always given one same answer to this question every single day॥ Wassup ? and the answer is nothing special) But we are always considered about the peak days when we were happiest and when we were really sad।

Just few examples। Few months back I had one hell of a day from morning to late night a thing that has to go wrong went wrong and things that I expected will never go wrong also went wrong. At the end of the day when I reached home I was in a terrible shape, it was so easy for me to cry that day (considering the fact that I'm very emotional॥ ;- ) ) but I did not. Infact i was smiling. I don't know why but I found the whole day very funny. It was like one nightmare where all dreams where shattered, all planning went for a toss, and things that you really valued for and loved were in a bad shape.

Similarly about an year back I had a happiest day of my life।Everything that has to go right was going right. It was like a beautiful dream painted with colours of reality. I think even if I had asked for a moon that day I would have got it. At the end of day I really felt like crying , to be frank it was tough to believe what had actually happened.

Taking the maxima minima part first, things did get better than what had happened on that nightmarish day। The next day everything started falling in place(well almost) and as the say life goes on, it went on...

And things did start to fall apart after that dream day, infact it fell apart so much that I for once thought that the happiest day shouldn't have come!!!


Now Root mean square teaches us about how life is not about only peaks। It is about average of what happens everyday। It is about the small happiness we get everyday and small teachings we learn everytime we fail। And no matter how deep ur trough is, or how high your crest is, what comes out after doing a root mean square is a postive value hence proving what SRK said...



Hamari filmo ki tarah, asal zindagi mein bhi anth mein sab thik thak ho hi jata hai aur agar nahi hua to Picture Abhi Baaki Hai Doston!!!

P.S. - May be I am not able to convey what I actually want to write, but whenever you are not feeling good and think that God has been unkind to you, just sit back and relax.. Try connecting the dots and believe me when you see the bigger picture, you'll realise its not that bad :-)

Happy FOOL's Day!!! :-)

Vivek : Hey Happy Budday...

Jhum : Hmmm.. Thanks and wish u the same !!!

Vivek : Wish u the same??? Today is ur budday and not mine Miss BeautiFOOL

Jhum : Everyone knows who the FOOL is !!

Vivek : Yeah, right!! that's why I wished you first ;-)

Jhum : By the way somebody said bye to me few weeks back

Vivek : I just wanted to wish you on your birthday and nothing else ;-)

Jhum : So I will get one more post in your blog

Vivek : You bet!! Chal me going to sleep now !!!

Jhum : :-) Goodnight

Vivek : GoodNight and sweet dreams!!

R u Free 2nite?

Time : Evening, around 5 pm.

Date : About two months back

SMS : So… r u free today evening?

Sent to : A number saved on my cell which I assumed was of a friend’s friend. This message was the first message I sent to her after talking over gtalk whole day.
(Just to clarify things I had taken an off that day and was not wasting my office resources )

Two minutes later……

Trin Trin…Trin Trin (My mobile rings)

Call from unknown number, but it looks a little familiar, must be some credit card exec.
Anyways, i picked up the call…

Me : Hello

She : Hello… Who is this?

Me : Excuse Me… You have called, you should tell me who are you?

She : I got a message from your no.


Me thinks… “Oh Shit! Did I send the msg on wrong no?? But it was her no. only….


Me : This is Vivek here.

She : Vivek, Vivek Vatsal…

Me : Yes…


Me still thinking …is that her only and playing prank on me or I actually have sent the msg to some wrong no.

She : Oh Hi, Vivek, this is Priya from Cisco Systems


Me falls from the sky… Trying to regain my composure… and trying to speak as if nothing has happened

Me : Oh.. I’m so sorry.. I was sending that msg to a friend, looks like by mistake I sent it to you.


She : Hey that’s ok…

And then she started laughing whole heartedly.... I was feeling like such a moron, of all the people how can I do such a mistake and that too with a HR from CISCO...

Me: I’m really very sorry.


She : No problems, anyways your offer letter is ready , you can come and collect it.

She again starts laughing :-( Poor Me!!!


Me : Ya sure… thanks and sorry once again


Me disconnected the Phone immediately!!!!!



Surely one of the most embarrassing moments of my life :-D



By the way I have the correct no. of my friend’s friend now but still struggling to find her free sometime 

Random Thoughts!!!

Its 1.30 in the night and I for some reason want to write a post. It sometimes is so difficult to look for a right topic and right lines to write when you are really in a mood to write. Mom says a person writes best when he feels something and then writes about it. So true!! But what if a person is not feeling anything and just wants to write something. Does that piece of creative writing end up as piece of shit? May be yes...

As I am writng this, one of my favourites oldies is playing in the background. There are two three couplets in the song which I really like (No specific reasons).
The first one is

Mubarak-e-Tumhe Ke Tum,
Kisi Ke Noor Ho Gaye....
Kisi Ke Itne Paas Ho,
Ke Sabse Dur Ho Gaye.........

and one more is

Kisi Ka Pyar Leke Tum,
Naya Jahan Basaoge...
Yeh Sham Jab Bhi Aayegi,
Tum Humko Yaad Aaoge.....

.....And what can be a better ending to this post than the starting lines of this song

Ajeeb Dastaan Hai Yeh..
Kaha Shuru Kaha Khatam!!!!
Yeh Manzilein Hai Kaun Si...
Na Woh samajh sake na Hum!!!!

Ek kahani Khatam to Duji.... Shuru ho gayi Mamu :-)

Vivek : Hi
Jhum : Ha... Bolo...
Vivek : Everything is changing around me.
Jhum : So....
Vivek : I think you been there for a long time now... I think its time I tell you bye....
Jhum : Nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!! How can you do this to me ..... If you think I'm gonna say this then you are wrong... Even I'm bored of you... :-)
Vivek : So let's say bye to each other with a smile.. Thanks for being the inspiration behind all those boring posts and amazingly irritating conversations ;-)..
Jhum : Hmmm... I'll take that as a compliment ;-) It was really great to find a mention in otherwise boring place.
Vivek : Bye Bye Jhum :-)
Jhum : Bye Bye Vivek :-)

Let's do the Mumbai Salsa!!!

Jhum : You have become so boring
Vivek : Why.. what happened ???
Jhum : So many things happening around the world and you have nothing to talk about.
Vivek : Hmmm... yeah even i feel so.. I have lost that flair for writing..
Jhum : Abe.. who is talking about ur blogs.. I'm talking in general you don't have anything to talk... All you say is aur batao.. aur batao...
Vivek : Ha Ha Ha... I thought girls like guys who speak less... ;-)
Jhum : Girls like guys who are what they are.. they don't like fakies!!! You look FAKE when you try to act mature!!!
Vivek : Fake... this word sounds so much like picked up from MTV Roadies
Jhum : Ya.. Right!!
Vivek : You know Jhum, I was watching a movie yesterday
Jhum : Which one...
Vivek : Mumbai Salsa
Jhum : Oh that Metro kinda movie...
Vivek : Ya u can say that..
Jhum : So what about it.
Vivek : There were two fundoo dump-ing scenes in the movie. The first involved the main guy being dumped by his girl friend coz she was going to US for a long time and she didnt want to continue with a long-distance relationship. Poor guy had his girl-friend's name Tattoed on his fore-arm just like Beckham has done it for Victoria.
Jhum : He He He
Vivek : And the best scene was when he is talking to his friends and says "Jab bhi main is tatoo ko dekhta hoon lagta hai mere haathon par deewar style mein likha hua hai Main Ullu Ka Patha Hoon....
Jhum : Bechara
Vivek : The next scene is even better.Another Guy meets his girl-friend at the lounge-bar and gives her a disc saying its the collection of her favourite songs. Guy then leaves saying he has left his mobile in the car. Girl goes to the DJ and gives the disc to him asking him to play it.DJ does the needful and guess what was there in the disc. A speech in which boy confesses about dumping her. It was playing at full volume with all the people listening to it in the lounge bar. You should have looked at the girl's face and her reaction.And just when the girl decides to call him and ask him wat's happening, the disc plays " Aur Ha mujhe call karne ki koshish mat karna... I've changed my no. " Amazingly funny scenes...
Jhum : Looks like I have to get a DVD today and watch it..
Vivek : Ya Ya.. go ahead.. watch it... Starting part is really funny.
Jhum : What do they do after the break-up.
Vivek : Simple.. they both hook-up.
Jhum : Chhay... that's so bad
Vivek : What's bad in that. Life is all about moving on. What else he/she should have done, become a devdas?
Jhum : Nooooo... but just after one relationship how can you fall for a next one immediately
Vivek : Hey.. m sorry on this.. I have absolutely no idea about this.
Jhum : Don't tell me that you never had a break-up.
Vivek : Nope.... You're still there na ;-)
Jhum : I should try it once then.
Vivek.. Try what? dumping me?
Jhum : Dump you.. Why will I dump you.. You're not my boyfriend!!
Vivek : He He He.. Then what do u wanna try
Jhum : I'll see what's your reaction when I stop talking to you
Vivek : Hmmm...The movie had one more scene... The guy's boss says to the guy after his breakup... "jab personal life mein bhuchal aa jaye to samjho career mein tarakki karne wale ho"
Jhum : What's the funda behind that ?
Vivek : How will I know, No experience u see!!!
Jhum : Oye u changing your job na..
Vivek : Ya
Jhum : So u also getting some kinda tarakki with respect to your career
Vivek : Ya... I know what you hinting at...
Jhum : What...
Vivek : yahi ki what bhuchaal came in my personal life...
Jhum : :-) No.... i was just asking for a treat.
Vivek : Very intelligent
Jhum : I know
Vivek : Toh kab mil rahi ho?
Jhum : Bus..There you go.. Fir se milna hai.. Don't u have anything else to talk?
Vivek : You only asked for the treat na..
Jhum : Chalo m sleeping now...
Vivek : Fir se wohi bahana....
Jhum : Good night
Vivek. Arey suno toh................................................

Happy New Year!!!!

Whenever you reach a destination, you look back and analyse how your journey was. The year 2007 ended few hours back and when I look back it was a year which was full sinusoidal. I had my ups and i had my downs.Here is my 2007 in short

The year 2007 started on a hectic note, or should I say a very see-off(ing) note. Early morning I was at Yashwantpur railway station see-offing a very close friend's parents, then afternoon was spent at airport see-off(ing) my sister andher family. Evening was spent at Bangalore City railway station see-offing a close friend and night at the bus stand see-off(ing) another very close friend. Covering more than 100kms on one day on bike, was tiring but it was all worth the time spent with the people you value most in your life.
Oops.... In between all this I did not get time to take bath on 1st Jan 2007!!!!!

February was special. Mom and Dad were to celebrate their 25th anniversary. Had a big blast at home. Morning was meant for puja and evening for cake cutting and partying. Both Mom and Dad were looking so beautiful together and so happy also. Wish them many many many more years of happiness and togetherness.

March was scary. It showed me the preview of things to come in near future. I knew things are not going to be all rosy-pinky!!!

April had a mix of everything, I had some of my best moments of life which I'm sure I'm never going to forget and then I had worst fights of my life. Ended the month with a peaceful soul-searching long journey on bike to Ooty.

May was plain boring. I could just see things becoming from bad to worse. Everything was falling out of shape. Similar situation in June.

July was exciting though. I found so many ways to get out of bad moods. Some of them did work. Also did a lot of work towards fulfilling one of my dreams. Though the task looked little difficult but eventually everything turned out in my favour( though not exactly).

August was special, I got into my first truly committed relationship. I got a new girl friend, who I am sure is never going to leave me. I got my first CAR. A sparkling red, brand new Chevy Spark. First drive back home was really special. Did manage to fulfill one of my dream but to be frank it was very short-lived. Had it been a little longer then all the efforts that went in, and the efforts that are still required would all have been worth it. Celebrated one of the most boring birthdays, and it was a true let-down when I had expected so much from it.

September came and went, I probably was too much busy with my new found heart-throb and didn't care a bit about things happening around.

October started with a disaster with one of the most cherished and special dream getting shattered once and for all. And I for once did not cry when something so important was left unrealised. I surely have grown up or have given up all together to my fate :-)

November was again meant for a trip back home. A rather long trip and for the first time I did not feel like coming back. Left home with almost moist eyes first time after leaving patna in last 6 years. Month-end was meant to be work at full pace. For the first time I felt little stressed out at work, but must say enjoyed every moment of it.

December start was meant for a rude shock. All the luxuries that I was enjoying with extra salary that I was getting for last 7 months, was noticed. And the extra salary given was being taken back. Result... I'm getting pea-nuts now which is not even bare minimum for survival... Poor me:-(

Ended the month/year with a trip to mangalore/gokarna. On the beaches, some of them deserted, a true soul-searching experience. And yes ended the year with a small fight, and then some lonely moments again. But before the new year would have set in, everything was fine and me back in the good mood :-)

Just realised that even this year, I did not take bath on 1st Jan !!!

Fear of Failure

If there is one thing that I have hated all my life is that "one-line". Though some time back i had become quite used to it, I mean I knew people will tell this , and I used to tell this even before they thought of saying and I was not at all concerned about it. But of late things have changed. This line has again started getting onto my nerves. When ever somebody tells that "one line" to me, I feel like running away from evereything, I feel like hitting that person. I feel like hitting myself... I really hate it. And that line now has resulted in my confidence going down. Fear of Failure has creeped into my thoughts, my brain, my soul. I am scared to work towards my dreams.
I want to get rid of it. I want to get my old confidence back...

But HOW????

Work-Formula!!!!

Jhum : Why has your blog become so inactive? I mean its almost 40 days now and you haven't posted anything.

Vivek : I know.

Jhum : Tu thik to hai na.??? Sab bhalo toh???

Vivek : Pata nahi yar... Don't feel like doing anything.

Jhum : Happens... Just a phase...

Vivek : Arey... I'm not depressed and all. I'm in a perfectly good mood.

Jhum : Then??

Vivek : Just one problem

Jhum : What is it?

Vivek : Somehow I have caught one bug, the one I dreaded the most. I was totally free from it till sometime back but now,I think it has affected me.

Jhum : Hmmm...somebody is getting philosophical

Vivek : Somebody is pulling my leg!!!

Jhum : Arey nahi yar.. just kidding.. acha tell me what bug?

Vivek : Go away.. I won't tell now...

Jhum : Hmmm.. we will discuss about it later, I am not in a mood to get serious...

Vivek : Ya right.. me too... may be some other time..

Jhum : Aise you know, these days you have stopped telling your stupid jokes.

Vivek : What are you saying, my roommates are complaining about my ever growing PJs!!!

Jhum : Oh really?

Vivek: Pata hai Jhum, there is one more problem these days.

Jhum : Ab kya hua.

Vivek :About 2-3 months back I changed my Deodrant brand..

Jhum : So?

Vivek: Now it seems this deodrant has a very long lasting smell and and it seems it is also very good

Jhum : Is it?? how do you know?

Vivek : Coz everyone keeps asking me which perfume you have put, its really nice. Everyone bole toh everyone, my friends, female friends, relatives, colleagues, my seniors at office,Everyone...

Jhum : That's nice.. I'm sure it must be AXE.... I have seen in ad people getting attracted by the AXE effect.

Vivek : Nope.. It is not AXE :-)

Jhum : Then wat is it?

Vivek : Wohi to problem hai, I can't tell the name.

Jhum : Arey.. Naam batane mein kya problem hai, you want it to be a secret kya?

Vivek : Nothing like that, Infact I want everyone to know about it.

Jhum :Toh fir batao :-)

Vivek : Actually the brand shares its name with a thing that we feel little shy to talk about...

Jhum : He He He... So you talking about the same thing that Vrijesh Hirjee advertises these days, asking people to guess the name of the thing and then call him to win prizes

Vivek : You're so intelligent!!!!

Jhum : So wat's the brand name.. i mean there are so many available in the market.. Which one shares the name with your deodrant.

Vivek : Go the a shop and find it out and suggest all your male friends also to try it out... It does WORK!!! :-)

Jhum : U r such a hypocrite!!! I don't wanna talk to you.. Bye..

Vivek : Arey Suno toh....

Jhum : Good night and Bye!!!

Nasha-Nasha

I had a bad night yesterday. A severe headache coupled with so many unanswered questions. Last time I faced something similar was when I was trying to solve the IRIS puzzles on the IIM-Indore site.

Anyways I don't think I'm still over it. After reaching back home, only thing I did before surrendering to sleep was to go through various sites and posts and try to get all my questions answered which were in some way or other were disturbing me.
Did get answers to few of them but at the end realised it was all beyond my thinking and imaginations.

The Aatma - Parmatma concept, the body - soul concept, the heaven -hell concept, the dream-reality concept, they don't entice me. I'm not saying I'm above all this, its just that they all are way above my thinking. I think I'm a very "chota sa" human being with little or no frustrations towards the life or the system for that matter. Yes, I do feel dejected sometimes, I do feel defeated sometimes but to link all this with the aatma thing is just too much to ask from me.


I watched "No-Smoking" yesterday and if somebody asks me whether to see it or not I would say it is like the "saap chuchundar ka khel". If you don't see it you'll miss a phenomenon and if you see it you'll end up asking yourself, why did I come here. No, its not that movie is bad, but you need to have a super IQ, EQ, SQ and an AQ(art-quotient) to understand what the movie was trying to say exactly, or maybe you need to see it again and again and again to understand each and every metaphor that the movie had.

I'm no Einstein or an Osho, the fight between the body and soul doesn't make any sense to me. But may be for Anurag Kashyap it did. May be for hundreds of people from the aam-junta it will make a sense. People who can think out of the box, but for a average and above -average intelligent movie-goers it won't, trust me it won't. And that's why so much of criticism for this movie. Coming out of the theatre I could see people holding their, shaking it contemplating what went in last twenty mins.
I also had lot of questions and I'm sure a day will come when I'll have answers to all of them.

Its a movie you must watch and then regret why you watched it. Its that kind of movie which will make you think and will get you nightmares (I had few last night!!!)



"To be is to do"--Socrates.....

"To do is to be"--Jean-Paul Sartre.....

"Do be do be do"--Frank Sinatra....

98863*****

Vivek : Hieeee!


Jhum : Hiiiieee! Where were you all these days ?

Vivek : Why??

Jhum : U didn't call me that's why.

Vivek : U were missing me kya ? :-)

Jhum : Why will I miss you, just that I had loads of free time and I didn't have anyone to talk to..

Vivek : You could have called me then.. Hamesha mujhe hi call karna padega kya!!

Jhum : Ya I could have, but why should I call first.

Vivek : Arey... You won't become small if you call first, infact I'll also feel good that you do remember me sometimes.

Jhum : That's what I don't want you to realise...

Vivek : Pata hai Jhum, we lose contact with so many people whom we used to call as friend at one point of time just because we think that the other person should call first. Comeon yar, what difference does it make who ever calls first.

Jhum : But not all of us is free like you.

Vivek :Its not about being free, its just about managing your time. Don't tell me that it is difficult for a person to take out 5 mins from their busy schedule and call a friend.

Jhum : It is!!!

Vivek : You know earlier I used to call all my close friends atleast once a week and now I hardly call anyone.

Jhum : See... Even you have changed.

Vivek : People like you have made me change.

Jhum : Now how is that.

Vivek : Coz even I'm fed up of calling people everytime. I feel they don't need me anymore, not that they needed me earlier.

Jhum : Tum pagal ho gaye ho... Phone karne ya nahi karne se dosti thodi khatm ho jati hai.

Vivek : You won't understand this Jhum. In hostel days if some friends used to smile at a girl toh woh bhi sabko pata chal jata, and now I know nothing about many of my friends. I don't even know which city they are in.

Jhum :That's your fault

Vivek : Galti kabhi ek side se nahi hoti hai

Jhum : Comeon Vivek, itni choti choti baton ko dil se nahi lagate.

Vivek : Dil se kaun laga raha hai. One day my room-mate and I were discussing about the calls we get apart from family members. and after some research we realised that in last one week only calls we got were from those beautiful ladies who wanted to sell their credit cards or give personal loans.. (Vivek whispers " Actually we need something else " ;-) )

Jhum : Hmmm... and wat about my calls.

Vivek : Its always outgoing and never incoming.

Jhum : Hmmm ok :-) So do u mean to say that you want your phone to be continuosly ringing.

Vivek : Nah.. not that way, but I do like it when somebody calls me just to say "Hi" or ask about my whereabouts

Jhum : Ok I'll call you every now and say Hi and will disconnect.. Howzzat???

Vivek : Very Funny!!

Jhum : Hey that's my dialogue.. Copycat!!!

Vivek : Whatever!!!

Jhum : Ok Vivek. I'll tell all my friends to call all their friends atleast once a week or in two weeks and say "Hi" coz vivek wants people to keep in touch... happy now??

Vivek : Happy now??? Tumse baat karta hoon to aise hi Happy rahta hoon ..

Jhum : Tum nahi sudhroge,bus chance milna chahiye... Chalo I will sleep now, have to get up early tomorrow.

Vivek : You also won't change, hamesha neend ki hi padi rahti hai...

Jhum : :-) I'm really very tired, Will talk to you some other day.

Vivek : Ok, No problems... Chal Good night

Jhum : Good night.. bye

Vivek : Bye




P.S. - For all those money minded people, STD rates have come down drastically, its just 1rs min now and local calls are almost free, so pick up the phone now, and call a friend whom you have not spoken to for a long time, may be he/she is also thinking about you but just hesitant to call you. And like you, may be he/she also likes it when somebody calls them for no reason but just to say a simple "HI"....

Ek Shaqs

Details to come, but as of now this song is doing something to me... Just wanted to share the lyrics here... Its a new song by Abhijeet Sawant... Amazing song !!!


(ek shaqs raaste mein kahin choot gaya tha
us haadse ke baad, yeh dil toot gaya tha) - 2


woh shaqs jiske kaandhe pe sir rakhe mein soya
seene se lagke jiske kayi baar mein roya
jiski zulfon ke khusboo mein raaton mein khoya
jis jism ki barsaat mein yeh jism bheegoya
(ek din kisi baat pe jab woh rooth gaya tha
us haadse ke baad, yeh dil toot gaya tha) - 2
ek shaqs raaste mein kahin choot gaya tha
us haadse ke baad, yeh dil toot gaya tha


rehta hoon qaid abhi jiski yaadon ke pehare mein
hai labz jiska zinda meri baahon ke ghere mein
jiske khwaabon ko maine neend mein sanjoya
jiske ashqko ko maine apani ankhon pe piroya
(ek din kisi baat pe jab woh rooth gaya tha
us haadse ke baad, yeh dil toot gaya tha) - 2
ek shaqs raaste mein kahin choot gaya tha
us haadse ke baad, yeh dil toot gaya tha


ek shaqs raaste mein kahin choot gaya tha
us haadse ke baad, yeh dil toot gaya tha
ek shaqs raaste mein... raaste mein

Jhum Kaun Hai??

Jhum : Why do you blog ?
Vivek : why are you asking that.
Jhum : Coz nobody reads your blog. Why do you waste your efforts.
Vivek: I don't blog for others.
Jhum : Oh really??
Vivek : Yes :-) , I mean yes, i do like people reading my blog but it is not that I won't write if nobody reads it.
Jhum : So why do you write..

Vivek: For myself.
Jhum : ?????
Vivek : Are yar.. why are you bugging me.. You don't want me to write kya ??
Jhum : :-)
Vivek : You know Jhum, everyone (I mean the people who happen to read my blog) keeps me asking who is Jhum?
Jhum : So you told them..
Vivek : I don't know... I just told them that you are an imaginary character.
Jhum : Male/Female
Vivek : I'll prefer a female :)
Jhum : But who am I?
Vivek : You are Jhum...
Jhum : Ab tu paka raha hai .. Acha Vivek tell me, if you have to describe me in few words how will you describe.
Vivek : You know jhum, wat's the problem with u, u ask way too many questions....
Jhum : All females do... U preferred a female.. right?
Vivek : No... not all of them do.
Jhum : U have to get close to a girl to understand this...
Vivek : You mean physically close ? :D
Jhum : Pervert mind... NO...
Vivek : Then
Jhum : Emotionally close..
Vivek : Yar par there are lot of tensions attached with it..
Jhum : Aren't u attached to me emotionally??
Vivek : But u r an imaginary character.. right ? :-)
Jhum : Forget it.. this isn't going anywhere.. Just accept it that girls have the birthright to ask questions.
Vivek : Ok.. as u say madam!!!
Jhum : U still have not told me who I am?
Vivek : You know who you are, I need not tell this :-)
Jhum : Abe waise nahi.. I mean... describe me
Vivek : You are the God's greatest gift to a ManKIND...!!!!!
Jhum : Sorry, my mobile is discharged... talk to you later :-)
Vivek : Bye Bye

Criss-Cross

Random Thoughts!!!!


Jhum : You know Vivek, sometimes I wonder why do things have to change.

Vivek: They change for better.

Jhum: Come on, Don't give me a bookish answer, you also know that's not true.

Vivek : Who said that?

Jhum : Don't tell me that you are happy with how the things are shaping out for you.

Vivek: If I say I'm happy then I'll be fooling myself, but to be frank it isn't that bad also

Jhum : But is it that Good?

Vivek: Well its all in the mind...

Jhum : Again bookish!!!

Vivek: You know what Jhum, whenever you are at cross-roads in life, whichever path
you choose, it doesn't matter, you'll always feel the other path would have been better.

Jhum: No, I never think that.... I never regret on any of my decisions.

Vivek: I'm not saying you repent, you will at some point of time think that wish you would have taken the other path.

Jhum : So what's wrong in that.?

Vivek: When did I say that this is wrong, I'm just trying to say that we often compare
things and that leads to depression.

Jhum: I'm not depressed.

Vivek : But you are not liking the things that are changing right??

Jhum: Hey.. one min... you can't always be happy.

Vivek : Its all relative, whatever makes you happy now will not always make you happy.

Jhum : I know that, but still...

Vivek: still what?

Jhum : Things should not change as long as you are happy with them

Vivek: Hey, that's what life is all about...

Jhum: F****** life theories!!!!

Vivek : Ha Ha Ha

Jhum: Why are you laughing

Vivek: You make me smile...

Jhum: How many times you gonna tell this.

Vivek: As long as you make me smile

Jhum: So what will you do when I'm not there to make you smile.

Vivek : Somebody else will make me smile :-) , You see.. everyone in this world is redundant and can be replaced, this might sound harsh but is true !!!!

Jhum : Agree!!!! But you know Vivek, how much ever fundaes you give, how much mature you try to sound, people will still think you as a KID !!!!

Vivek : Jhum, know what, things will change... and will change for better !!!!

Howzzat!!!!

Chak De India :-)

Jhum - What makes you happy ?

Me - You!!!

Jhum - I'm not going to be there forever, there should be something else also that makes you happy

Me - Why you asking this. I'm generally happy. Can't you see me smiling all the time.

Jhum- Yes I can see that but to be happy all the time and to really feel happy for something are two different things. So tell me what makes you feel really happy.

Me - I told you na...

Jhum - So you mean to say if I'm not there you will never be happy.

Me - No it is not like that.

Jhum - Then...

Me - I don't know.....

Jhum - You don't know what makes you happy and you say you are always happy. That means your smile is fake.

Me - No it is not like that, I don't know...

Jhum - Ok the day you find something that made you really happy do let me know.

Me - Sure, but how will I know that I am really happy with something or I really felt happy for something.

Jhum- Its simple.You said I make you happy.. right... Tell me how do you know that.

Me - Coz whenever I think about you, I smile without any reason.

Jhum - Exactly. The day you find something that makes you smile just by thinking about it that will be the thing that makes you feel really happy. Got it?

Me- Yo!


From that day I am looking for the things that make me feel happy or should I say really happy.Things have been little difficult over last few months. To actually smile without any reason had become a thing of past.No its not that I have been going through tough times or a difficult phase, its just that nothing was happening that was worth getting happy for.

Yes I did get a new girl friend recently, and she is HOT, and I do enjoy when I'm with her but she comes with a lot of tension. I mean most of the time there is just one thought going in the mind, to protect her from the horrible bangalore traffic. Thankfully she has been very co-operative and nothing has happened to her till now (Touch-wood !!!)

Anyways coming back to the main point, I finally had one such moment yesterday that made me smile just by thinking about it.Cricket is a funny game and like it happens in life , you lose some and then you win some.... After a disastrous WC in west indies, it was heartening to see the INDIA's performance in this T20 WC. And yesterday's win against the mighty aussies was one such moment that I am going to cherish for a long long time. It was amazing to see such a humdinger of a match and to end up on the winning side when you are pushed right against the wall, when all the odds are against you is something special.

Every moment of yesterday's match was special, whether it be Sree's dangerous stares and glares after everytime the batsmen used to miss the ball or his expression of joy after getting a dismissal, or be it Yuvi's fists in the air after Hussey's dismissal or be it Bhajji's bhangra on the field when India's victory was sure or the Dhoni's calmness and smiles or be it the togetherness in the team and the huddle after they finally won the battle, it was a night to remember. The sheer joy of seeing India winning more often than not was quite a feeling. Just thinking about the match with the aussies brings a smile to my face.

Hey Jhum, India winning cricket matches and that too important and the close matches makes me happy !!!!!


Hope the winning form continues and we win the cup tonight... Wishing Dhoni and his boys all the best...

World Cup abhi mangta hai!!!!

MUMBAIed!!!!

If I say Bangalore was MUMBAIed today I wouldn't be wrong. In just one hour of rain the city was literally crawling. The otherwise twenty minutes journey to my home took painfully long four hours. Already crippled with the worst traffic in the country , the MUMBAI style rain and the idiotic traffic sense of people made everyone's life who were on their way back to home, miserable. The low lying areas like BTM were knee deep in water add to it the peak time traffic and then the vehicles breaking down due to the water flooding, the movement of vehicles came to a stand still.

I started for home at 8pm hoping to reach home early and watch the highly awaited first T20 match for India. But things weren't going to be that smooth. By the time I reached home it was 12.20 . Luckily it was raining in africa also and the match was abandoned. Hope to see some live action tomorrow. And rain or no rain I'm leaving office at 6 pm tomorrow, I don't want to take any chance for the Indo-Pak match.

By the way if you are stuck in traffic, play your favourite music as loud as possible and rest assured that by the time you reach home your patience level will be intact and at the road you won't lose your temper, even if some ppl have zero driving sense and have started driving on the wrong side causing further mayhem and a perfect deadlock!!!!

Anyways it was fun all the while, seeing people faces, smiling at each other, asking how long and hearing funny answers!!!!

and Thank God my Sparky reached home in one piece and without any scratch :-)

Black or White

This post is dedicated to a close friend who recently had a fight with his friend and was very upset about it. I hope they patch up soon and be happy as they always were... Good luck Mate!!!


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I have changed,
That’s what you think,
You have changed,
That’s what I think.
And we are no longer together
That’s what everyone think.

I did not make any mistake,
You know that.
You did not make any mistake
I know that.
But we both are responsible for it.
That’s what the feeling of everyone around us.

They say people are not wrong,
It is just the times that are bad.
They also say
Times Change,
But how and when
That we both have to find out.

They say life never gives you a second chance
It is either now or never
But then they say there’s always a next time.
You learn by your mistakes and then do well.
So is it going to be never again
Or over and over again???

The whites and the blacks are mixing
Life for some reason is showing us shades of grey.Now it is totally upto us,
Which part we want to see.
Its all in the mind
And I know
Sooner or later
We are going to find out
Everything we thought as black,
Was not actually black.
It was just the dark glasses we were wearing
Everything was just WHITE!!!!


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Roses or Thorns

7 PM - Location - Forum Mall, near my office
Wat's going on in my mind - Shit... I forgot to take my bike from the service centre and it is closed now :(
8PM- Location - Somewhere on my way to home in an auto
Wat's going on in my mind - Thank God I didn't have to return home by bike today. Driving in rain and traffic with laptop is so difficult. Auto seems so convinient sometimes :)
8.35 PM - Location - Just 50 mts from my home
Wat's going on in my mind - Shit.. This stupid auto has to stop just 50 mts from home.. Now will have to run in the rain :(
8.37 PM - Location - On the stairs to my home
Wat's going on in my mind - Shit.. I left my earphones in the Auto :(
8:40 PM.. Location - Near the auto
Wat's going on in my mind - Thank God the auto had gone bad, it was waiting there only, got my earphones back :)

Moral of the Story.....Wish we could look at the bigger picture all the time...Important thing is all that happens is for good only, its just that we don't realise it :)

Woh Subah Kabhi To Aayegi!!!

Of the many super powers I wish to have, one is to read people's mind and know what they are going through and what they have been through.
Every one of us have a story to tell. And everyone of us needs someone with whom they can share all their thoughts. Some of us are lucky to have a person who is very close and you can share absolutely everything with them. It may be a close friend, ur partner, your sibling or your parents. While Some of us are not that lucky or rather some of us do not trust anybody and will prefer to sulk rather than telling anyone anything. And some of us write everything they feel in a diary/blog. Though the diary means keeping everything personal again but blog makes the whole world let know that what you are going through.

Now don't get ideas now. I'm not going through any bad phase, or there is something that I want the whole world to know.. Its just that while google-ing I came across many blogs and I happened to read them.
A common connection between most of them.. A failed love story, frustration, depression and every other negative words that you can think of.

But the blog that touched me most (I do get emotional at times :) ) was one by Abhinav (not sure if the name is right, I do now even know who he is)
Apparently he was very serious about a girl, whom he was trying to woo for last 3 years but when the time came to take a decision about spending the life together girl refused saying that she won't go against her parents.(Quite a normal trend I must say ;) )


In one of the post he said that when he was feeling very low, a friend came and told him don't be upset Jesus Loves You. And he was happy, thinking atleast there is someone in this world who loves him. But all the happiness was gone in a second when the same friend told him next that everyone else thinks you're an idiot!!!
Poor Guy!!!
He also talked about the good times that he spent with that girl. The things that changed in his life. And how he became a better person. And now that he wants to be with her for all his life, he realised that things can never be rosy-pinky!!!

Anyways... Life is like that only.. You win some and then you loose some... Important thing is to keep yourself going. Getting disheartened by the failures is what cowards do..
So just get up and get going coz nothing is permanent in this world. Learn to adapt to the changes and you will be a happier and a wiser person :)

Happened to hear this song after a long long time yesterday and I think it aptly fits the post.


EK Woh Din Bhi The..
Ek Yeh Din Bhi Hain..
Ek Woh Rat Thi..
Ek Yeh Raat Hain...

Raat Yeh Bhi Guzar Jayegi!!!!!
Raat Yeh Bhi Guzar Jayegi!!!!